i have birthdays to talk about.


happy birthday desmond!
belated anyway.
and i'm sorry i forgot.
but i hope that youwill become a world famous chef one day and get married to a superstar!
much love.


and happy birthday sean.
the message in the morning was Claire's fault.

and moses. happy birthday to you too!

so i had a really weird dream last night. about Ben. and somehow it was so vivid. he was wearing a black singlet. i dont know why. but you can see his muscles. and he does have alot of muscles. and jeans. and this black Crumpler bag. and RP had a blackout. and i was trying to find my way into class. and out of no where. he was behind me. he held my hand and i think i melted in my dream. and when we were in the lift. i was so close to him that i could smell him. dont ask me why the lift was working during the blackout. but it was.
even during that short period of time. i could hear my heart beating. really loudly. he walked me to my class and gave me a kiss on my cheek. and i became a puddle of water on the floor. and then i woke up.
the best dream i ever had. of ben i mean.

then waking up made me realise that all this cannot come true.

hafiz made me irritated. he's got alot of answering to do.